This compilation of works, that have been produced over many years is much like a two-way mirror. You may see into the deepest parts of my mind, while I may not look into yours. I offer you a warning this work contains descriptions and depictions of depression, suicide, drug abuse and other sensitive topics. If you believe that reading about them from a firsthand account will do you harm, please, set the book down and walk away. But in the odd case that you are still reading this I wish that these words do you some good. And allow you to better see in the dark, that they may give you better sight for spotting the prerequisites to destruction.