***I highly recommend reading in order*** Julie McEvoy has been mourning the loss of her mother most of her life. Only . . . her mother isn't dead. She's not missing. She's not even far away. She's just not there the way a mother should be. Having enough of the passive-aggressive loop their relationship has been on, Julie cuts ties completely with Cynthia. It shouldn't matter; Cynthia's never really there for her anyhow. She doesn't need her mother anymore. Except-she does. Cynthia McEvoy has been keeping secrets for over thirty years. She's not proud of it, but it has helped her to become the strong, independent woman she is today. The same strong woman who is now trying to pick up and glue back the pieces of the relationships she's either destroyed along the way or never allowed any nourishment for. Hopefully, it's not too late. Sometimes you have to go back to the beginning to understand how behaviors start, why they continue for so long, and where to begin the healing process.