I'm done hiding who I am.Pretending to be straight, to be the loving, devoted husband and successful ER doctor everyone wanted me to be has been exhausting.I numbed the pain any way I could, and in the end, it cost me everything. My job, my marriage, the relationship with my grown kids.But now I'm in recovery, and for the first time, I'm living my true life as an out gay man.I need to get my act together, to get healthy again. Benoni is my new personal trainer...twenty years my junior. He makes my mouth water and certain other body parts react. Oh, and he's also my son's best friend.I'm forty-seven years old. It's time for a clean start. But where does Benoni fit in?Clean Start at Forty-Seven is part one of a duology, an emotional MM romance with an age gap, first time gay, loads of hurt/comfort, and the beginnings of a beautiful Daddy/boy relationship. It contains themes of opioid addiction and religious homophobia. Please check the trigger warnings in the front of the book.