In this his first book, Bill Mena takes us on the personal journey of his life, or, as he says, of his two lives. Experience his transition from a semi-monastic life to coping with the pressures and pleasures of secular life. His early youth in the Americas; his schooling and ordination to the priesthood in Europe; his ministry in England and his return to America. Bill lets us into his personal struggle to resolve the conflict in which he found himself, a conflict between his loyalty and wish to serve in the Catholic Church, and his wish to find personal fulfillment. In his own words “The story that follows, then, is the story of my personal journey and rebellion...........my personal rebellion from a good student to a dedicated priest, to a frustrated cleric and eventually to a contented husband.” The reader will get a glimpse into the life of one who has experienced equally the rewards of a compelling religious experience and the richness of secular life.