Never Experienced Trauma before and learned Trauma is "Trauma" when my mind quickly went to what many Vietnam War Vets must feel like after I began to suffer from "Incredible Debilitating Agonizing Anxiety" which brought on "Physical Pain" with a feeling like I was going to "Jump" out of my own skin. This is my First Book after I knew I could no longer live with the Rage, Resentment and Sadness I had compounded after the Loss of my Marriage and the Death of my Adult Son having to find my "Path" of "Forgiveness". I embarked on an Incredible Journey with A "Theologian" Man and a "Retired Catholic Nun" who served the Church for over Twenty-Five-Years. They "Both" were my "Angel's and Teacher's" where I learned "Forgiveness" and "Trust" knowing both cannot "Exist" without Each Other. My Writing became my "Therapy" putting everything in "Perspective" when I began to see all the "Gifts and Blessings" "God" has given me and continues to give me. My "Rock" was gone and all I had to hold onto Then, Now, and Forever was my Incredible Faith in God. I had so many "Blessings" at one point in my life that I prayed asking "God" to "Give me the Resources" to "Spread his Word" So that "God's Word" would "Magically Change Other's" as "God's Gifts, Tidings and Miracles have completely transformed me" I realized that "Steven John" was my "Resource" with my "Beautiful Story" of "Self-Forgiveness".